I swear, I don’t know what my mom does with her damn money. You just got paid on Friday, where the hell is your money? You borrow money from ME and grandma, and you don’t even pay me back unless I ask you. And when I ask you, you complain while giving me back MY money that YOU borrowed. Really now? Can you spend your money on something a little bit more important like.. let me see.. how about feeding your kids? You cook once a week and there’s absolutely nothing in the fridge and when we ask you for food, you yell. Wow. What a mom.
I've never disliked anyone so much until you came into my life.
I had such a great day with Albert and my brother Lewis up until I came by to visit my dad and give him the clothes that I bought for my 1 year old half brother Collin. When I came in my dad made me hold Collin, and it was the first time I got to hold my half brother even though it lasted less than 5 minutes. Then SHE came in. My dad’s wife. She ran in and grabbed him away from me and threw the 5 dollar bill that I gave to my other 4 year old half brother on the floor and ran to her room slamming the door. Really now? You’re an adult, and you just threw a tantrum, wait, a BITCH FIT, right in front my boyfriend, my dad, my grandma, and my brothers? You left me speechless for the first time. I’ve never hated anyone until today. You are the reason why I moved to live with my mom after living with my dad since I was born. I had the greatest relationship with my dad until he married that stupid bitch from Vietnam. Ugh. She came and ruined everything. My dad is one of the most important people in my life and someone I looked up to so much. She came, brainwashed my dad, and for the first time I saw weakness in him. Something I’ve NEVER seen in my life. After you threw that bitch fit of yours, and left us all speechless for a minute, I became angry. What did I ever do to you huh? You gave me reason not to like you because I know I’ve never done anything wrong to you until you started bringing drama into my life. And even then, I was in 7th grade. Over 5 years ago, get over it, I’m NOT a kid anymore. I have more sense and maturity than you do. You were the reason why my dad and I stopped talking for a year, and it took us 4 years to regain our relationship back, but even now, it will never be the same. I wish I could do something to change the situation, but I can’t. I hate you. I hate what you put my dad through. I hate what you put my brothers through. I hate what you put me through. You’re the reason for the pain that I will always have to live through everyday. It’s like a deep scar that will never go away. And everyday I look at it and remember. I wish I could make it go away, but I can’t. And you’re the reason why. Everything horrible thing that I’ve been through is because of you. I hope one day you’ll have a taste of what you put me through. And even then it wouldn’t change anything, but I hope you know. But by that time it will be too late. You had your chance. I have so much reason to hate you. I wish I could just say all these things to you, but I can’t. The only reason keeping me back from hurting you is my dad and my family. You mean nothing to me from this day forward. I actually tried giving you a chance, but that was your last. I’m not putting any more effort to someone like you. I swear, the next time you do some shit like that again, I’m not holding back bitch.
Sometimes I never know what to say on these things or I'm too lazy to write anything at all.
So I am doing another challenge. x]
10 day challenge
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. Day Ten: One confession.
i cant tell u who i am cuz im the 1 who used 2 write shit on tjs and karmens page n u used 2 defend tj.but now i miss all of u.karmen n tj never knew i hated them n they were always good friends to me.but i was jealous of them.im so stupid.i miss u all :(
That’s so weird… haha okay.. I wish I knew who you are though. I don’t have any clue. O_o
I usually keep these things short. As much as I write, I can’t ever tell you completely who I am. If you want to know you can find out yourself. But even then you wouldn’t know me completely. I guess whatever you get out of me will be enough. :]
I’ve learned that having a job is hard work, but it does pay off in the long run. It also showed me commitment and responsibility, which I lacked especially in school. You also don’t realize how much money is worth until you actually get a job. Making money is hard work and saving it is even harder. xD
I love all of my close friends and even some who aren’t so close. I don’t know what I’d do without them. Especially the mains. <3 I don’t have to write an essay to tell you guys how wonderfully awesome you are. You already know who you are!!!
Our relationship is far from perfect. I’m not close to you and I don’t tell you a lot of things about me, because I KNOW you wouldn’t understand. You never try to understand me. All you do is yell and expect me to listen when all I hear from your mouth is nonsense. Sometimes we have a our good days, but most of the time it’s bad. I missed how caring you use to be, but now you don’t even give a crap what we do. And you wonder why our family is so dysfunctional. It’s because of you.
You’ve pretty much raised me since I was born. You had always been a good father to me until you married that.. I can’t even call her a women cause she’s really not. Anyways, our relationship went downhill when she came over and started controlling everything and even brainwashing you. It’s the reason why I moved out in the first place to live with mom. We didn’t talk for a year after and it took us about 4 years to get back a normal relationship, but I’m glad we did. I know you still care about me despite what had happened. Sometimes I wish I was back with you, but I know that will never happen since you are still with her. I still want to thank you for caring about me. At least I had one parent to turn to when things fell apart. I love you. <3.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
I’m behind, so I’m going to do 3 today.
I think everyone is different in some ways or another even if they act the same, but what makes me different is the way I think. My mind puts me in such a different place than everyone else. Anyone can label me what they want or assume me to be, but you can never know who I am unless you take a journey through my mind, which will never happen of course. :] I don’t try to be like everyone else. If I dress nice does that mean I like to show off and look all materialistic? No, I dress nice because I want to present myself reasonably and just because I feel like it. I don’t care what people think, but if you wonder why I say stuff back to you, it’s because I don’t want you to think you’re tough and won any “fight” because until I put my point across, you haven’t won anything. I look like a sweet and innocent girl, but trust me, I will not let anyone take advantage of me. I’m NOT that kind of girl. I don’t care if you’re skinny, big, fat, strong, dark, or light, WHATEVER. If you harm me or anyone I love, you will be seeing me. I am different in so many ways that many people will never know, but if you get to know me, maybe you’ll see.